09.12.2014

Bazam ye rooz gozashto , baz to azam doori . Chikar konam ke in fasele ke beyne mas, dg bere , nabood beshe . 

Say kardam dark konam , say kardam aroomet konam . Ama harkari mikonam baz mikhay beri , dg chikar konam bishtar az in, dg bishtar az in ziadi . Dg dorost nist , nemikham be zoor negaret daram pisham . Ama nemikhamam beri .  Pas tasmime dorost chie ... Vaysam ? Vaysam bebinam ba man chikar mikoni ? Age gharare ba delam bazi koni o bendazim , ya aroomam konio khoshalam koni ?! Entehaye in rabete chie..........

Man bish az khodam dooset daram va nemikham in rabete tamoom beshe hichvaght ; chon age tamoom beshe engar joonamo gereftan. Negarane toam, har rooz , har saat, har min , har sanie , na chon e mikham aziatet konam azadito begiram ke hey tahdid mikoni. Na chon dooset daram , kheyli . Akhe kesi enghad vasash mohem tarafe moghabelesh kojaso chikar mikone vaghti in adam mohem nist. Maloome ke na. Ama negah to cheghad mohemi , ke az moghei ke baham sard shodi , az moghei ke cheshmat mesle ghabl tooshoon setare nist , az oon moghe mariz shodam o rooz be rooz pajmorde tar misham ... 

Midoonam kare bad kardam , ama dalil nemishe ke bad basham . Man eshtebahaei kardam , rahaei bar dashtam ke alan pashimoon hastam ... Ama say mikonam rooz be rooz behtar basham ba to kenaram . Ama to bejaei ke ayandeye roshano negah koni , gozashteo negah mikonio rooz be rooz ghalbe paket siah tar misheo , kinei tar mishi. Marde maghroor khoobe , ama na vase oon kesi ke doost dare , pesari asheghe ke ghorooresho mizare kenar vase eshghesh... 

Mitarsi , natars... Zendegi ba man khoobe be khoda. Na chon ke ayandeye roshani daram, chon ke doost boodim ghabl az harchizi , hamdam boodim , ehteram mizashtim be ham ... Pas moshkeli peyda nemikonim. Pas age mitooni , bebakhsh ... Tanham nazar , va vaseye bakhshidan o moondan ye rahi bezar.......