11.12.2014

Be rabetehaye sade hasoodim mishe ... Bazi che khoda dooseshoon dare , che asoon ham dg o peyda mikonan o be ham miresan ... Bad ma , cheghad ashk bayad beresim , cheghad bayad talash konim ke be ooni ke mikhaym beresim . Dalilesh chie ? Karaye bad kardim ? Gonah kardim... Ya dalilesh ine ke bishtar ba eshghemoon mimoonim .

Dorost nemidoonam . 

Harki ye sarnevesht dare . HArki ye rahi dare. Pastoo bolandi dare zendegi har rooz ino be khodam migam. Bad migam agar sade bood , lezat nemibordamo , va in shirinie zendegie ke talash koni vase oon chizi ke mikhay.

Pas mijangam , vasam mohem nist chand saat , chand mah , chand sal tool mikeshe .  Ama be arezooam miresam . Be to miresam . Mohem nist kojaye donya hasti , mohem nist ba ki hasti ta nafas daram mi istam be pat , chon kesi nemitoone jato begire. Hala harcheghad ke mikhay mano door az khodet negar dar , harcheghad ke mikhay delamo beshkoon , ashkamo dar biyar . Eshkal nadare , inaro mipaziram , age akharesh be to beresam. Hastam vase to . Ta akharin nafasam hastam vase to...

Nemitoonam dalilesho behet begam , chera enghad dooset daram , be in shedat , chera royam shodi ... Khodamam nemidoonam chera enghad mikhamet chera bedoone to nafasam band mishe , chera aramesh baghshami , ghorse ahsabami... Ama ye chizi mitoonam begam , kesi injoori nist vasam , bejoz to . Pas naro!!!

Midoonam khodetam how many times u push me ; akharesh na to miri na man . Chon bishtar az oon chizi ke fk mikoni doosam dario be man ehtiaj dari . Va midooni age beri yeki az bozorgtarin eshtebahaye zendegit mishe . Ama mitarsi . Chon kesi nemitoone az fardash motmaen bashe, chon hamechiz momkene pish biad ... Marg, jodaei, marizi, taghire alaghe, nemidoonam ... 100000 etefagh.  Vase hamin bahoone miari migi hazer nisti ba kesi bashi, azadi mikhayo, dalilaye dg . Ama moshkel hazeri nist , tarse ... Tars az khodet . Tars az inke mitooni etemad koni . Midooni mitooni , midooni mishe ama fln nemikhay tasmim begiri , fln mitarsi faghat sard raftar mikoni o hey holam midi ke beram , ya ke harchi dir tar tamim begiri . Vase haminam hast hanooz raham nakardi. Chon nemitooni . Chon doosam dari.

Age ino mikhooni , bedoon ke manam daram. Ye alame daram . Va age negarane mani ke beram , dg negaran nabash , ke mage bemiram ya ejbaram koni... Chon kesi vase man TO nemishe.